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I'm great, ain't I? I'm good! You have to admit, I am perfect. Perfection! Really, I'm not being too proud of myself. I really am good at what I do. I am the best! I am invincible, unbeatable, uncomparable even. Why should I try to be modest?
Well, I'm not really perfect. I'm not good at everything! I may not be so good at some things. I'm not the fastest swimmer, and I'm not the smartest chess player. I'm not so great at starting conversations. I don't know much about politics.
But wait, that's not important. I don't care about these things. I could be the best at anything I want! If I wanted to, if I believed in it. I just don't believe in some things. I don't waste my time. It's all part of my superior value mindset. I shouldn't care about things that mere mortals think about. My standards are much higher than that!
Or are they? If my standards are so high, why don't I stick to them? Why do I falter? Why do I let things slip?
Well, sometimes I get lazy. Everyone gets lazy, everyone makes mistakes. Not all the time. I need my rest. I need a break. I need to have my fun.
Really? If I'm so good, I shouldn't even think this way. Some people work a lot harder than me. I can't be the best. I could even be the worst. I don't fit in this world, society doesn't want me.
They don't understand me. Nobody will understand. Only someone like me can understand my values. I shouldn't care what they think. I am the best. I am a superior being, the enigma, the elite. Why should I care what lesser beings think of me? They don't know what's good for them. I know myself, and that's enough.
Do I really? Sometimes, I don't even understand myself. Am I good, or am I bad? Am I doing things right or wrong? Sometimes I even feel I am evil. Look at me, saying I'm the enigma. What kind of psycho would say that?!
I guess, it's just a culmination of my feelings, another of my irrational attacks. At least I'm good most of the time. I do the right thing. Yeah, do the right thing, no matter what. That's what I say. Ask my close friends, they know I'm the wise one.
But I don't do what I say! That's what I am, just giving advice and doing nothing myself. Proclaiming my great skills and goals, and achieving nothing!
But I do try, don't I? Guess I'll just go back to work and keep quiet about it. Maybe one day I'll prove it. Maybe I am no different from these people, just the same as everyone. I'm just thinking too much. Am I superior or inferior? Guess I'll never know.
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